Obliviate

 I'm pretty sure there is a sign on my forehead that says "Walk all over me, I don't care." Because seriously I am so tired of it. I feel like lately I'm either invisible or in the way and it's getting really old. I'm tired of feeling like I wanna cry all the time and I'm tired of feeling like I'm unwanted. I wish people could just tell me when they have a problem instead of acting like they're ten and just ignoring me.

I'm also tired of being sick. I don't know if it's from this new panic disorder I've supposedly got or if I'm really sick and no one can fix it. I just want to be able to sleep at night and not feel like I'm about to fall over from lack of sleep/my chest feeling like someone is sitting on it.

Also, no matter how lame it may sound, I miss my family so much. I don't know what my problem is these last few weeks but I feel like I have separation anxiety or something. I feel so out of place here at school and I feel like I'm missing everything that's going on at home. My sister is growing up and becoming a teenager and I'm missing all of it! And it would probably be a different story if the people here weren't ignoring me right now. 

I honestly don't know what I'm doing right now and what's wrong with me. I just want things to be good for once in my life. I want bad things to stop happening to me and I want things to just go as planned.

And just a side note, I'm watching Ramona and Beezus right now and it's almost making me feel a little better. Maybe I wish I was 9 again?