Dissendium

Well, I made a life-changing decision yesterday. I am no longer a UIndy greyhound. I withdrew from classes yesterday and moved off campus and came back home. I decided that after starting to have panic attacks plus the pressure of school, it was all just too much. So now I'm home.
Part of me feels like a big failure but the rest of me is just relieved. I'm relieved that I don't have to write lesson plans or stay up all night or work my ass off for nothing. I'm relieved that I can hold my kitty and sleep in my own bed and see my family every day. I miss my friends down there but it was nice to wake up today and not have to worry about what homework I had to get done or if I would pass the big test. It was also nice to wake up with my kitty and be able to wear my pajamas all day.
Now I'm not totally done with school. I'm in the process of applying to schools close to home so I could commute. Hopefully if all goes as planned I will be enrolled somewhere next semester and will just be spending an extra year in school. I really don't like that idea but it beats the way I was feeling at school these past few weeks. I was always frustrated and sad and anxious and homesick and upset.
So, I'm taking a semester off and will start school back up again next semester! For now I'm going to be re-doing my room and taking it from pink-loving 13 year old girl to me. Because the pink gives me a headache. I will also probably read Harry Potter again because, well, why not? And I'll go on Pottermore I expect. (I'm a Hufflepuff btw :P). If you want to be my friend or have a duel my username is SilverRose160!