Dissendium

Well, I made a life-changing decision yesterday. I am no longer a UIndy greyhound. I withdrew from classes yesterday and moved off campus and came back home. I decided that after starting to have panic attacks plus the pressure of school, it was all just too much. So now I'm home.
Part of me feels like a big failure but the rest of me is just relieved. I'm relieved that I don't have to write lesson plans or stay up all night or work my ass off for nothing. I'm relieved that I can hold my kitty and sleep in my own bed and see my family every day. I miss my friends down there but it was nice to wake up today and not have to worry about what homework I had to get done or if I would pass the big test. It was also nice to wake up with my kitty and be able to wear my pajamas all day.
Now I'm not totally done with school. I'm in the process of applying to schools close to home so I could commute. Hopefully if all goes as planned I will be enrolled somewhere next semester and will just be spending an extra year in school. I really don't like that idea but it beats the way I was feeling at school these past few weeks. I was always frustrated and sad and anxious and homesick and upset.
So, I'm taking a semester off and will start school back up again next semester! For now I'm going to be re-doing my room and taking it from pink-loving 13 year old girl to me. Because the pink gives me a headache. I will also probably read Harry Potter again because, well, why not? And I'll go on Pottermore I expect. (I'm a Hufflepuff btw :P). If you want to be my friend or have a duel my username is SilverRose160!

Reducto

So there I was just checking my email this morning, like I do every morning, when I saw it. 
I FINALLY GOT MY POTTERMORE WELCOME EMAIL!!!
Now, you can call me a nerd or whatever if you want to because, believe me, I know I am. My excitement when I saw the words "Your Pottermore account is ready!" in my inbox was through the roof. So, since I had class today I spent all day anticipating the moment when I would be done and could get sorted, go to Diagon Alley and maybe brew a few potions. Then when I got home and clicked on the glorious link...
IT DIDN'T WORK! 

It took me to a page that said "Due to high levels of demand, we are currently restricting access to Pottermore. Please come back and try again later."

WHAT?? You sent me my email now. I want to get on now! 

So I have been refreshing the page every few seconds and I am still awaiting that magical moment when I can finally enter Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry.

Obliviate

 I'm pretty sure there is a sign on my forehead that says "Walk all over me, I don't care." Because seriously I am so tired of it. I feel like lately I'm either invisible or in the way and it's getting really old. I'm tired of feeling like I wanna cry all the time and I'm tired of feeling like I'm unwanted. I wish people could just tell me when they have a problem instead of acting like they're ten and just ignoring me.

I'm also tired of being sick. I don't know if it's from this new panic disorder I've supposedly got or if I'm really sick and no one can fix it. I just want to be able to sleep at night and not feel like I'm about to fall over from lack of sleep/my chest feeling like someone is sitting on it.

Also, no matter how lame it may sound, I miss my family so much. I don't know what my problem is these last few weeks but I feel like I have separation anxiety or something. I feel so out of place here at school and I feel like I'm missing everything that's going on at home. My sister is growing up and becoming a teenager and I'm missing all of it! And it would probably be a different story if the people here weren't ignoring me right now. 

I honestly don't know what I'm doing right now and what's wrong with me. I just want things to be good for once in my life. I want bad things to stop happening to me and I want things to just go as planned.

And just a side note, I'm watching Ramona and Beezus right now and it's almost making me feel a little better. Maybe I wish I was 9 again?

Herman-na-na-na

For the past few weeks for school I have been teaching a group of four Kindergarteners on Tuesdays and Thursdays. And they are completely driving me crazy! Now don't get me wrong, they're cute and say the most adorable things. I even have one who has a brother with one eye and one leg. Yeah.
But...
Oh my gosh, I do not want to teach Kindergarteners. They are so hyper and antsy and don't listen! And they seem to want to know what everyone else is doing instead of listening to what we're doing.
So today I subbed for half the day at an elementary school in my hometown in a fifth grade class. 
And. I. Loved. It.
I absolutely loved being in an older classroom. I was so shocked at how much I enjoyed being in a fifth grade class because I absolutely did not like sixth when I subbed last year. There is such a difference between that one year. The fifth graders were so well-behaved (other than some talking) and they were very respectful and polite. It was definitely not what I expected and I am thinking now that I will probably choose an older grade when I get my degree.

Also, Facebook is pissing me off. Anyone else not liking it? I mean seriously, if I wanted to use Google+ I would get an account.


Now I would like to talk about the season premieres that I saw this week.


Glee:
First impression? I miss Sam and Zeises. Also, I like Quinn's new hair, but not her new attitude. She can keep the pink cos I like it, but she needs to get her ass back to glee club. Love: Blaine at McKinley!!! Love: Sugar! I loved Vanessa Lengies in Stick It! Love: the Kurt/Rachel bond that seems to have formed out of their shared performance in an empty theatre in NYC. Overall, this episode was a much needed pick-me-up for this Gleek!


New Girl:
LOVEEEEEEEEEE THIS SHOW! If you didn't see it you either need to watch it as soon as possible or just throw your TV out the window. It was absolutely amazing! It was hilarious and I am even more in love with Zooey Deschanel if that's possible! It's going to be a great way to end my Tuesdays!


Grey's Anatomy:
I'm kind of on the fence about his one. I was glad to get it back and I enjoyed that it was a little more reminiscent of the older episodes, but it still made me mad. If you haven't watched yet, don't read because I'm gonna talk about it. I have to. Love: the way Cristina and Owen made up! So glad Mer gave Owen that verbal slap in the face. Love: Bailey. Period. As always I loved Bailey in this episode. So sassy. Love: all the adorable babies! Zola and Sofia are absolutely adorable! Hate: Webber!!!!!!! No!!!!!!!! I mean, obviously I want Mer at Grace but no Chief Webber? Who's gonna be chief now??? Hate: That Lexie and Mark still aren't together. All I can say here is wtf? Hate: THE ENDING!!! I realize it's gonna be on again in a week but I mean come on! I just want everyone to be happy again! This whole Derek hates Meredith thing is pissing me off! Just make up already. He is not being very McDreamy.  Oh one more love: the ending. I know, so let me explain. I hateee the ending in general, but I loved that it was Alex who comforted Meredith because I love that they are friends! I have always loved their friendship and am sooo glad that they are friends again!

Well, those are the only shows I watched this week because I was too busy doing homework to catch any others. 


That's all for now because I'm exhausted and I don't think I can stay up for anymore.
Bya!

Wingardium Leviosa

Good morning! Hope everyone slept well, I know I did. 

Since my last post was only last night and I haven't done anything but sleep (unless you count watching Beauty and the Beast this morning), I've decided to share some more funny Harry Potter pictures with you all :) They make me happy, so I hope thye make you happy too!

Apparently I was in a Voldemort mood today. I particularly enjoy the first one. Plus I like tacos, so... ya know.
That's probably all for now, we'll see if anything exciting happens today and I'll let you all know! For now though, enjoy the day!

Pieces of Me

So, I decided that since earlier my post was kind of a big rant I'd post something a little more fun. It was also a nice break from all the homework my professors thought would make my weekend better. I got the questions from The Nearsighted Owl, a blog which I found recently that I really enjoy, and decided to write down the A-Z's of me. So, enjoy!

A. Age:20

B. Bed size: Now this one depends on where I'm at. Most of the time I have a tiny college twin bed that totally sucks. When I come home for the weekend however, I have a lovely full size bed that I enjoy spreading out on and sleeping with my kitty.
C. Chore that you hate: Dishes. Fuck dishes.
D. Dogs: I has one! Her name is Ooma and she has jank teeth and is totally adorable. And she misses me when I'm at school.
E. Essential start to your day:
F. Favorite color: I'm not really sure what it's exactly called but it's a light aqua/turquoise/blue-green-ish color. However, I also just like the color blue in general.
G. Gold or Silver: I would probably say silver, although I don't really wear jewelry all that much. My favorite necklace however, is gold; it's a cross that my grandma gave me when I was younger, so I like gold as well.
H. Height: 5’9"
I. Instruments you play: Does singing count? I love to sing, but I can't play any instruments. I tried to take band in middle school but I couldn't play any of the instruments. Like, I literally could not play any of them. Then I took guitar lessons in high school. And hated it. So, I still can't play any instruments. But I can sing!
J. Job title: Student! I do homework all the damn time. I am also in my junior year so I am doing student teaching two days a week now. So I suppose I'm also a Student-Teacher.
K. Kids: My kitty! I love my Luna!

L. Live: Indianapolis. Although, I rarely actually ever go into the city.
M. Mother’s name: Kimberly.
N. Nicknames: Well, I guess Katie is a nickname since my actual name is Kaitlyn.
O. Overnight hospital stays: When I was a baby. And that's it.
P. Pet peeves: Bad spellers (I was in spellbowl in high school), ignorant, stupid people and bad drivers.
Q. Quote from a movie: "Words are, in my not so humble opinion, our most inexhaustible source of magic." -Albus Dumbledore
R. Right or left handed: Right!

S. Siblings: Little sister in 6th grade who is super awesome.
T. Time you wake up: 6 am (eww) on Tuesdays and Thursdays and then on Mondays and Wednesdays I can sleep until 8. I can wake up whenever the hell I want on Friday, Saturday and Sunday :)
U. Underwear: Well, I wear them. And I like colorful pairs.
V. Vegetable you hate: Brussels Sprouts. My mom and my sister love them. The smell makes me nauseous.
W. What makes you run late: The internet. I have to check Facebook and Twitter before I leave in the morning so if someone is having a really dramatic day and I can't help but get sucked in, it makes me late.
X. X-Rays you’ve had: My chest, my ankle, probably my other ankle.
Y. Yummy food that you make: Cupcakes! I even have an awesome icing gun!
Z. Zoo animal: Kitties!!! Also I like the giraffes. And dolphins.

Imperio

So apparently American Apparel, the popular hipster clothing brand, has finally decided to include size XL clothing in their line. Now, American Apparel has been in business since 1989 and is just now beginning to make clothing in a size XL which translates to a size 12/14. This line is called the Next BIG Thing. Keep in mind that this is happening a little more than a year after model April Flores asked if they'd ever consider doing a plus size line and they replied with "That's not our demographic."


Now I'll say that I'm fat because it's true. It's not really an insult so it doesn't really bother me to say it. That being said, I am not a size 12/14. Because since when is a size 12/14 considered plus size? In most any store you go to you will find clothes up to a size 12, 14, or 16. Stores like Target and Walmart (yes, I know they are a totally different kind of store than American Apparel, but that's not the point) even have most of their regular clothes in a size XXL. Even stores like Forever21 and Wet Seal which are more similar with the brand have semi-recently come out with a plus size line. Plus size lines that go up to 3X! Now that sounds more realistic to me. A size 12/14 is the size of the average American woman, not a 2 or a 4. Wouldn't it make sense to carry this in a normal clothing line?

Now this really isn't even the point of this post. It probably would have crossed my radar and I would've said "Oh well, it's not like it surprises me" because it doesn't. What surprises and disgusts me a little, is the way in which they announced the line. Not only is the name a little bit ridiculous (we know what the Next BIG Thing is without you making the word big, well, big) the way in which they announced a model-search was absolutely appalling to me. 

Think you are the Next BIG Thing?
Calling curvy ladies everywhere! Our best-selling Disco Pant (and around 10 other sexy styles) are now available in size XL, for those of us who need a little extra wiggle room where it counts. We're looking for fresh faces (and curvaceous bods) to fill these babies out. If you think you've got what it takes to be the next XLent model, send us photos of you and your junk to back it up.
Just send us two recent photographs of yourself, one that clearly shows your face and one of your body. We'll select a winner to be flown out to our Los Angeles headquarters to star in your own bootylicious photoshoot. Runners up will win an enviable assortment of our favorite new styles in XL!
Show us what you're workin' with!

I mean, seriously? A little extra wiggle room? XLent model? Photos of you and your junk to back it up? I think the only way they could have been more condescending would have been to write, "Hey fat people, we really don't want to make a line for you but send us a picture of your fat asses and jiggly arms and the least-fat one will win a modeling job." I don't know about you, but that's pretty much what I took from the message. Also, did I mention that the winner is chosen by online voters who rank the women from 'Not quite' up to 'XLent'. Umm, rude!


There was also another woman who took the ad the same general way that I did. Her name is Nancy Upton and she is a complete genius. Now Nancy is actually a size 12/14 whereas I am not. She decided to respond to the search and submitted photos. Photos of her bathing in ranch dressing, eating a chicken wing and pouring chocolate sauce into her mouth. She looks damn good and did a damn good job of portraying the message that American Apparel has sent with their model search contest. Here is an article with some of the pictures and some email conversations the writer had with Upton. You can also read about her decision and American Apparel's response here, in the blog she created on tumblr.

Now I realize this post has pretty much been a rant, but what I really want it to be is more of a nod to Upton because it took guts to do what she did and I definitely applaud her for it! I feel that what she did is quite inspiring and the slap in the face for American Apparel? She won the contest! Why? Because she voiced her opinion and voters agreed. And it also helped, I'm sure, that she looks pretty fucking awesome.

So, thanks Nancy, for being a superly bad-ass woman.

Expelliarmus

Apparently it's been a month-ish since I've posted anything. To that I say, blame school. I have been here for almost three weeks and they have been three of the longest weeks of my life. I'm pretty sure I had a panic attack the first week because I was so overwhelmed and then proceeded to get a chest cold. Yay, me!

My room this year, however, is pretty legit. No more showering in a room full of stalls and other people, I have my own bathroom. I share it with one person, but that's definitely like 10 steps up from a whole floor full of girls. And I actually have a closet and an abundance of drawers. It really is lovely.

Now, I am almost positive that my classes this semester were designed specifically to kill all of us. Seriously, I'm pretty sure the junior block of the Education department here will all be full of zombies by December. We are at three lesson plans a week right now and we read at least two chapters of the book for every class. And we are teaching kids. Right now I am in a Kindergarten classroom at one school and I have two second-graders at another school that I tutor in math. Now, don't get this 'tutoring' confused with the work you would do to tutor someone with their homework in a specific subject. For this tutoring, I have to make up a lesson plan for every class (every Tuesday and Thursday at 7:45 am) that will help both my students learn whatever the topic is. Did I mention my students are at two totally different ends of the spectrum?

They are also the sweetest things ever :) Along with these two second graders, I have a group of 4 Kindergarteners who absolutely make my Tuesdays and Thursdays. We are working on a colors unit right now and I have a feeling I'm going to miss them like crazy come October when we move up to first grade.

Now, since I have spent way too long talking about school, I would like to share some pictures that have no doubt helped me get through all the stress :) Enjoy!

And now I shall go do some more homework.



Oh, and I would also like to acknowledge the fact that I still don't have my Pottermore welcome email and I am getting pissy.